I've been writing a little by hand every day. I just can't sit myself down to write for a long period of time.

250 words a day is such a small amount from the 1,667 words I was trying to write in November. Still I suppose, something is better than nothing.

A friend of mine told me awhile ago, after a vigorous discussion about local politics, that all my political problems stemmed from the fact that I don't fee downtrodden enough.

Apparently, I don't feel left out enough, not disenfranchised enough, not poor enough, not poverty consciousness enough, and I don't feel like the world has messed me over. I don't feel cheated by big business or corporations, and I don't feel angry enough about certain political policies.

He said I was too happy, too idealistic in my own merry way, way, and too optimistic to vote, in his opinion, the right way.

I've been thinking about what he said, and I'm like maybe he's right. I do feel like I've accomplished a ton in my life. I don't think I've been messed up by big corporations and business too much. Sure I've had job insecurities big time, but who hasn't experienced that.

And I am basically optimistic about my future prospects. Maybe I'm like so naive, and I'm still that country girl from Kauai which is a small rock in the middle of the Pacific ocean, but I honestly don't feel that downtrodden.

Maybe I am, but it sure has hell doesn't feel that way to me. I feel very blessed about my life, always have. Things could have gone so much worse for me and they haven't.

Does being happy and blessed about my life make me a conservative person? In my friend's eyes, it does. And I'm thinking, I don't care if I am conservative. I like my life. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Stupid windows xp! My windows explorer is only corrupted for my work profile, and not for anything else. How screwy is that?

If I log on as the administrator to my work laptop, windows explorer works. If I log on as myself into the corporate network, windows explorer doesn't work.

Bad morning at work.

First, a way too early conference call that I kept wondering I was asked to attend in the first place.

Then my windows explorer quit working, which means I can't search for documents. I tried to troubleshoot on my own but with no luck. Finally, I called the IT support desk at corporate and come to find out I have to reinstall Windows XP or at least repair it.

Damn! Three hours of troubleshooting only to come to the conclusion that I should just reinstall my operating system. Stupid windows XP! The IT guy is overnighting a cd to me, so he can walk me through the reinstallation or repair tomorrow.

I hate this! I hate computer problems.