I'm thinking about music tonight. On the way home from my greek drama final as I'm driving along the beach I hear all these songs connected to men I've loved.

Wish you were here by Pink Floyd - Paul
Hit me with your best shot by Pat Benatar - Michael
How deep is your love by the BeeGees - Reid
Wouldn't it be nice by The Beach Boys - John

Then before class I started thinking about my top 10 cd list again, this time adding:
Butterfly by Mariah Carey
My Favorite Things by John Coltrane
Wish by The Cure
Symphony and Metallica
Kind of Blue by Miles Davis
What's the story morning glory by Oasis
Dirty Mind by Prince
Celebrity Skin by Hole
The Four Seasons by Vivaldi
Requieum by Mozart
The Crow Soundtrack

And now this is my favorite new song: Breathe (2am) by Anna Nal

2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breathe
Just breathe, ohho breathe.

I think my pc needs some serious upgrading. Last night I turned on my computer on to work on my greek drama paper, and the fonts were all messed up. I called a friend of mine who use to be a Help Deck techie at a company we both worked at, and she suggested after having tried many things that I copy the fonts in my font directory on my laptop to my pc. This solved the problem.

Somehow the fonts in my font directory were wiped out because when we looked in there, they were all gone. What a scary, scary thing to happen, but thankfully we fixed it. I just thank god I have my laptop as a backup. I don’t why it took so long for me to buy one, because I use it quite a bit and I love watching TV and writing on my laptop. I can watch TV and write at the same time, which is only difficult if I get involved watching a program. I like to have the television on for background noise when I write, and when I get bored I can always look up and start watching whatever is on.

I definitely have to upgrade the chip memory on my pc, because it’s a 256-chip and it’s very, very slow. After that I need to put all my important files on a cd, so I can upgrade to Windows XP professional. I finally have my upgrade copy. Last night’s computer scare reminded me that I have gotten very lax in backing up my pc. I should really just buy one of those giant memory sticks that have a gig of memory and back it up to there once a week. All I really care about are my Microsoft Office files like words, excel, ppts, etc, my pdfs, my mail files, and my palm pilot files. Everything else can be reinstalled.

But if I do upgrade from Windows 2000, I think I need to clear out all the garbage out of my pc. I have mail messages in Outlook from 1998 that I’m still keeping. I think I should also keep all my important docs in a few directories, just so it’s easier to back up. This kind of stuff is such a chore, but very necessary if I want to upgrade my pc. I guess this will be my Memorial Day project this weekend.

I rented the movie "I Robot" and I think I might have to get the DVD. Not that the movie is that good, but the comnentary by director Alex Proyas and Akiva Goldsman is so fantastic. They actually tell you what when went into the writing of the movie, and as a lesson in how to write a screenplay it's very informative.

I think it's the best commentary I've ever heard on a movie. Usually they are so boring, but this one is very, very good. Akiva Goldsman wrote "A Beautiful Mind" and I think was also brought in to write "The Da Vinci Code". I have a book where he's quoted and he said he attended Robert McKee screenwriting seminar and after that, sold his first screenplay. Funny huh? Just like the guy in the movie "Adaptation".

The weekend of June 11 has three seminars that I badly want to take. I'm already paid for a seminar called "Creating the love relationship" that you want, which has an 85% success rate. I met a woman who met her husband shortly after she took the seminar and she said he was 95% of what she wrote up she wanted in the seminar.

Robert McKee is also doing his three day "Story" seminar that weekend here in San Francisco, a location that he rarely uses. Then there's a seminar on that new energy psychology technique I discovered called "EFT". If you''re not into energy psychology, it's like the latest and greatest new thing. I took a 3-hour seminar on EFT in April, but couldn't stay for the whole thing.

So I'm like love, screenwriting or emotional freedom ... hmmmmmm. I'm already registered for the love seminar and they've already cashed my check. But Robert McKee, I mean when is he ever going to be in San Francisco. And EFT, who doesn't want emotional freedom.

But ... I guess love wins out every time. 85% success rate ... that's an amazing stat for a seminar on how to find your perfect love. And 95%. I don't think I've gotten more than 50% of what I've wanted in a relationship. I know you can't have 100%, but I didn't think you get 95%. I thought it was more like 50% and up to 75% if you were really, really lucky. But 95% .... that's like a frickin' miracle!

I finally finished my paper and it ended up being 8.5 pages. I'll read it tomorrow on the way to work and edit it, and make any changes tomorrow night. It's not the best paper, but at least it's over with.