I decided that I hate my job. I probably would have tried to leave last year if it wasn’t for that whole business with the red-haired guy. The people are nice, but the organization itself sucks since it’s so disorganized. I can see them heading into some rocky, rocky times this year now that the CEO is sending out emails about how we need to cut expenses.

I didn’t like my other job either, but I was so lucky to have a job when everyone else I knew was unemployed, that I managed to file away from discontent for four years. I have to figure out a way to file away my dissatisfaction with this new job like I did with my previous job. I know this is a good job for me financially, and my boss is great although sometimes just plain irritating. But the company is very dysfunctional and their disorganization is just too much for me to handle sometimes. I know my boss feels the same way because she told me last week that she didn’t know what we were doing.

My intuition is telling me to at least hold one through the summer because the company will going through some rough times, and that the rough times will initiate several changes culturally within the company. Until then, I’m going to have to figure out a way to feel content with my job. My discontent is at a zenith today, and I know this is a bad sign for me. I know it’s affecting my attitude at work and that’s not good.

I'm hoping this is just post too long holiday job satisfaction stuff, but I have a feeling it's not. I think this stuff has been building for a long time, and fortunately or unfortuntately, my roller coaster personal life has distracted me from facing how much I'm really not happy at work. Part of me wants to initiate another personal crisis just so I can stay at my job, but that would only delay things and not really solve them.

Sometimes I hate long weekends. Coming back to work today is such a big old drag. I don't want to be here, my boss is so irritating me, and I'm dreaming of getting out in any I can. Where's my sugardaddy? Like I'd never ever thought I'd ever want one, but you know I can see why some women would want one now.

I was sitting on my bed this afternoon between 2-3pm, and I felt a sharp jolt hit the building and then my bed. I kind of thought it was an earthquake, but wasn't sure because it was so short. I decided to check the USGS site, and sure enough there were two minor earthquakes around that time at the San Francisco Zoo.

Wow, what a trip. I felt something hard hit the building but I knew it had to be some minor earthquake because when I looked outside I didn't see anything. This is the second quake I've felt in two weeks. I hope this isn't a sign of things to come.

Just because I'm purchasing song like mad on iTunes doesn't mean I've stopped buying CDs. My latest CD purchases were:

The Crow Soundtrack - think I might have to get the DVD as well and put this movie in my top 10 list

October by U2 - the first U2 album I bought back in the day when they were just a no-name band from Ireland. Gloria is still one of their best songs, and an early prototype of a typical U2 anthem song.