More thoughts on a "Paul Haunting". What is it with men with brown hair and vivid blue eyes? Every time I get to know one, I end up falling in love and sometimes even dating them and once I even married one. Here's the list.

1. The english priest who presided over my first communion. He used to come over to my house and lift me up in the air and walk around. I'm sure the catholic scandalists would have something to says about him.
2. The bisexual priest in high school who had a crush on me. Man, could that guy dance. Sadly though, he died of AIDS a long time ago. He always leaving the priesthood and coming back. I wonder what the catholic church scandalists would think about him?
3. My first love, my freshman year in college. What can I say about him? I thought he was the start of my brown haired/blue eyed men obsession, but he's number 3 on the list. He taught me about classical music and Bootsy Collins and the Ah Shit chorus and how to recognize a great bass line. Every time I hear a song by The Cure I think of him.
4. My poet/writer college boyfriend who went to Country Day School for Boys in St. Louis. I think this guy became a playwright. I still have the poem he wrote for me. I've been meaning to frame it.
5. My exhusband. Still think he's cute after all these years. Surprising, we're still still friends. The guy would take me back in a second if I asked.
6. The man I saw in the Aka Joe outlet near Jackson street. I think he was the soulmate but I was married at the time, so I freaked out and ran. I think I freak out and run from alot of men I find incredibly attractive. Nerdy, aren't I?
7. Paul, exboyfriend who died this year.
8. "I think I've found my Krishna" Screenwriting hottie boy. What can I say ... he's a jock, he does yoga, he looks like Charlie Sheen, he's absolutely beautiful and to die for, every girl in class had a crush on him, and he's read the Bhagavad Gita. How could I not fall in love with someone like him? Too bad I ran from him too, but we're sort of still friends I think.

Another group for the Paul Haunting list - Dada. They had that one hit Diz Knee Land. The whole album was actually quite good.

10 at 10 from 1982, heard last night on KFOG during my workout.

1. Bill Nelson - Flaming Desire
2. Flock of Seagulls - I Ran
3. Alan Parsons Project - Psychobabble
4. Jon Anderson - All in a Matter of Time
5. XTC - Senses Working Overtime
6. Marvin Gaye - Sexual Healing
7. Huey Lewis & the News - Workin' For a Livin'
8. Men at Work - Overkill
9. English Beat - Save it for Later
10. Split Enz - Six Months in a Leaky Boat

So many memories from that year. I forgot how much I loved the song "Senses Working Overtime". I'll have to figure out how to get it. I haven't heard Psychobabble since I was with Paul, my dead exboyfriend. Every time I hear a song I associate with him, I feel like I'm getting a "Paul haunting". Groups associated with Paul: Pink Floyd, Jesus Jones, Guns N Roses, 4 Non Blondes, Joe Walsh, The Grateful Dead, and the Wish album by The Cure. Other groups too but I can't remember them all. Only know I'm having a "Paul haunting" when I hear the song. I think I owned A Flock of Seaguls album. Whenever I hear "I Ran", I think of that summer I spent in San Diego being a nanny to my two nephews. I poddy trained my nephew Brandon and he grew up to be such a sweet young man. I still love The English Beat and wished they were still making hits. You can't find a good ska band or record anywhere. I heard a good ska band once at Miss Pearl's Jam House years ago. My girlfriend and I stood on our chairs and danced and nobody said anything. I guess pretty girls dancing on chairs at a nightclub is always tolerated, no matter how dangerous or how wasted the girls are. The bartender guys just stared at us and smiled as did every other man in the place. I guess we were quite a sight. Dare I admit I used to love Men at Work? My two friends from Australia, Maree who ran her own day care center and Cathy who worked for the government, hated them. They never understood what my attraction to that group was. Maybe it was the singer's voice. I never much cared for Huey Lewis and the News but they did make okay music if you're in that kind of mood. I don't remember who Bill Nelson or Jon Anderson were? I didn't listen to anything except new wave and techno pop and disco. But of course, I totally remembered that Marvin Gaye song. I think I even had sex to that song once. Whatever happend to Split Enz?

Three semi good-looking guys stopped by to talk to me in the coffeeshop while I was working on my screenplay. There were so sweet and I got the distinct feeling that they were very happy just to speak to me. The cutest of the bunch said to me "See ya later" as he left, like he really meant. There were very young though, probably too young for my taste, but hey, I still get a thrill when guys get a thrill just speaking to me. It's so cute!!! Never mind that I would never ever go out with any of them. It's just cute that just speaking to me made them so happy. Boys are funny aren't they?