The Recognition ...

It starts with a look, a face, a smile, a curve of a check, maybe even something heard in a voice, and then all of a sudden the cloud of unknowing parts and you see. You see a ray of sunshine among the stormy and dark clouds, you see into the unseen, the veils between the higher and lower worlds, between the dimensions, between the frequencies.

You are a like a generator cell, pure energy, buzzing day and night, maintaning and building the life of the whole organism. You have a purpose but it is unknown, until you glimpse a projector cell. A projector cell who has no propulsion of its own, so it drifts around on the body's, the world's endless energy currents created by the generator cells. The projector cell lets you dock within them, within their own timing. And the recognition process takes place. The recognition process takes place through a coded lock and a key program built into these two types at birth.

And you glimpse the light, the light of your own soul, you see into the darkness, you hear the words of Christ as he cried out in agony on the cross in Golgatha "Father into you hands I come", and you surrender believing with a faith that does not believe to see, you give into the madness, the recognition, where each choice becomes a death, where you will confront the parts of yourself that you do not want to know is there, that you didn't know even existed, the bits of darkness the floats freely among the quiet stillness of your soul, the loneliness, the self-pitying, insecure, addictive, compulsive, utter selfishness and evil parts of your self, that coexists side by side within the good, within the light, because without the darkness the light cannot shine, the light cannot be seen and the light must illuminate the darkness, so the darkness can be transmorgified and transmuted into the light.

And so you journey, make that first step, make that first choice, and you hope the moment lasts a lifetime until you take your last breath. But sometimes a moment is just a moment that does not last and is as fleeting as the bink of an eye. But the journey must be made and the choice is accepted and then the step is taken because there are always lessons to be learned, and a life that must be transformed and demands change.

Biology references taken from and inspired by Gene Keys of the UK.

Some pictures from my trip to Hawaii.

The view from my room

Another view from my hotel room in Poipu Beach Kauai.

The pool in front of my section of the hotel.

Speaking about confidence in my writing skills. I forgot to mention last month that the head writer in our Brand department complimented me on one of my business letters. Every external letter I write has to go through the Brand department to make sure that whatever is sent out adheres to what the company's brand image. The head writer in Brand said she was using going to use one of my letters as an example of how to do something. That's pretty cool huh?

The sales/marketing manager in my division told me I was one of better writers in the division, and in the whole company outside of the Brand department. The woman has a PhD in English and is a terrific writer, so when she told me this I was in awe. She does not give out compliments very easily. She knows I want to be a writer, and I asked her if she would edit my stories for me. I told her I would of course pay her, and she agreed. I think she would make not only a good grammar editor, but a good content editor as well.

I never think of myself as a good business writer, so to be complimented like this at work is such an ego boost for me. I am starting to believe that despite my bad opinion of myself as a writer, I'm not that bad. I know I need to brush up on my grammar and to think about wordsmithing more for my fiction stories, but at least I seem to have the basic skills of writing, which is really all you need to be a good business writer.

I went to a Learning Annex class last Thursday given by a New York publishing agent. I went with my new friend from work, who I found out is also a writer. The seminar was so informative. The agent said that at publishing house grades a writer on how well they execute the idea of what they wanted to write about. I never thought about writing this way before, but it makes so much sense.

You have an idea for a story, and the story is the written form of making the idea come to life with characters and a plot. It's like problem solving. How do you get from point to A to point B in the most entertaining and logical way possible. Problem solving is what I do for a living because it comes easily and naturally to me. If I think about writing my stories this way, I think the process will become easier. I was thinking I could ask myself at the end of each chapter, did I execute well the idea I wanted to get across in the chapter or at this point in the story. If the answer is yes, then the chapter is finished. If the answer is no, then I know the chapter needs work. Each chapter and even the plot can be run through the same process. Does the plot and each chapter execute the story I want to tell. I think I could even think about my characters using this process as well. Does my description and the actions I have the character take execute the idea I have for the character and type of person the character is.

I am excited by this new idea of story writing. It makes sense to me and it gives me confidence in my story writing, because I know I'm a good problem solver. I've been told I'm very good at problem solving at all my jobs, and if I can just transfer this business/job skill into my writing, I think I will be in good shape.