How do you when you've found the one, the one person you're supposed to spend the rest of your life with, your soul partner? Do you all of a sudden look up and magically you see this guy and he's like totally beautiful and you hear the violins, you meet and then you fall in love. Or do you meet this nice and cute guy one day, and you become friends and soon he's like your best buddy and then friendship turns to lust and then to love. Or is it a combination of both.
I don't even believe in the concept of "the one". I believe you have many "right ones" and it all depends on how long they're supposed to last in your life. There's always the one for the moment, the week, three months, six months, five years and then I think finally the rest of your life. But how do you know which one the guy. Is he the guy who's supposed to last in your life for six weeks or is he the guy who's supposed to last a lifetime?
I wonder if you even know and that maybe it's a day to day to thing and pretty soon you're 90 years old and you're still with the same guy you've been with since your youth.
Something tells me that I've either met the one or I'm about to meet him and I don't which it is. I was raised catholic so I need like major signs to tell me some guy is the one and if I don't get the signs, I'm so not into it.
The only thing I know is the guy had better be pretty darn spectacular and imminently jumpable for me to leave the comfort and security of my single elf girl life. I love being single. I love the freedom of not having to account for my time to anyone but myself. I know I do better in a couple than as a single, but being single is such a great trip. There's no gig like it. There's so much freedom and time when you're single. When you're in a couple, I think there still is freedom and time, but there's just more organization and planning involved because you're dealing with two schedules instead of one.
But I don't know ... being single is great. At least I know how to be single and I've gotten used to it. But I also know that I'm one of those people that do so just a little better in a couple situation. I just want it to be the right couple situation and at this point in my life, nothing less than a perfect heaven or pretty darn close to it will do.
Thursday, May 09, 2002
A friend of mine sent me this because my life has been a little chaotic lately. The greater world too seems to be going haywire as well. When in doubt, check out astrology, it has all our answers ;).
Beware the Mercury Retrograde.
Has Mercury retrograde begun to bite yet? Mercury is the planet of communication, so when it retrogrades--indeed, even BEFORE it retrogrades, you can begin to feel the slowdown. Things break, communication goes awry, and generally the world goes a little haywire. Mercury will be retrograde from May 15 to June 7.
Mercury will turn direct on June 8. Until it does, protect your data. Also, try not to sign any agreements, buy anything expensive or make any big decisions. If you find you have to do something important and cannot change the date, just stay flexible as the conditions surrounding your situation may change. If you're having a baby, it's always a good time (even I was born with Mercury retrograde).
It would be easy to overstate the problems with Mercury retrograde. Believe it or not, there is an upbeat side to Mercury retrograde too. One of the best parts of Mercury retrograde is that it is helpful for reconnecting with people from your past. There are other benefits of Mercury retrograde. You may find a valuable missing object, or clues
to an old mystery. Old projects that you couldn't find the time or money to do, suddenly jump to life and become possible. The bid you made on a house that was rejected now turns around--the buyer wants to consider your bid after all. One of the best bonuses of a Mercury retrograde period is that we all get a chance to find closure on a
whole variety of issues and relationships, and that is no small asset!
Beware the Mercury Retrograde.
Has Mercury retrograde begun to bite yet? Mercury is the planet of communication, so when it retrogrades--indeed, even BEFORE it retrogrades, you can begin to feel the slowdown. Things break, communication goes awry, and generally the world goes a little haywire. Mercury will be retrograde from May 15 to June 7.
Mercury will turn direct on June 8. Until it does, protect your data. Also, try not to sign any agreements, buy anything expensive or make any big decisions. If you find you have to do something important and cannot change the date, just stay flexible as the conditions surrounding your situation may change. If you're having a baby, it's always a good time (even I was born with Mercury retrograde).
It would be easy to overstate the problems with Mercury retrograde. Believe it or not, there is an upbeat side to Mercury retrograde too. One of the best parts of Mercury retrograde is that it is helpful for reconnecting with people from your past. There are other benefits of Mercury retrograde. You may find a valuable missing object, or clues
to an old mystery. Old projects that you couldn't find the time or money to do, suddenly jump to life and become possible. The bid you made on a house that was rejected now turns around--the buyer wants to consider your bid after all. One of the best bonuses of a Mercury retrograde period is that we all get a chance to find closure on a
whole variety of issues and relationships, and that is no small asset!
Wednesday, May 08, 2002
There are so many strange things going on in the world right now. I blame those planets that are aligning in the sky. Think abou it. In all the movies, scifi and non-scifi, where the planets aligned themselves, it was always considered a bad omen. Nothing ever good came out of planetary alignments. We're just like the cave people, cowering in our homes instead of our caves, waiting for the next disaster to befall on our world, all because of these planetary alignments. It's nuts!
I'm so bummed. This radio station that I liked Z95.7 FM has changed to some bad 70's classic rock music station. God, how boring. There was a report in the Contra Costa Times that on Tuesday, all the deejays from Z95.7 got let go. Like we need another make me fall asleep classic rock music station in the Bay Area.
I check the radio station ratings on this website called rronline.com and here's the latest top 14 radio stations in the SF/Bay Area, which is the fourth largest market after NYC, LA and Chicago.
1. KGO - news talk radio - I listen to this station during the day - best talk show hosts, liberal view point.
2. KOIT - sappy pop songs, but good if you're in that kind of mood.
3. KCBS - news talk radio, has the most frequent traffic reports.
4. KSFO - news talk radio, conservative view point, home of Art Bell.
5. KYLD - wild 94.9, total hip hop 24/7 - gangsta rap bootie music, some alt rock thrown in
6. KDFC - classical music, okay I listen to this station alot when I write.
7. KMEL - hip hop 24/7 - more gangsta rap bootie music, their hip hop is a little edgier
8. KFRC - total oldies, but nothing past 1980, mostly 50's and 60 music
9. KSOL - hispanic - love the spanish versions of pop songs
10. KFOG - classic rock adult contemporary, makes me totally fall asleep when I listen to it, sad too because I used to listen to this radio station alot but they play way too many 70's and 80's rock anthems and they make me feel like an oldie, even the blues music they play isn't all that great - too much bayou and not enough chitown electric, and what the hell happened to the Grateful Dead Hour, the only great thing they've got is 10 at 10.
11. KKSF - total elevator music, although they call it smooth jazz, more like music as SOMA, only Delta and Epsilons types from Brave New world will listen to this station
12. KBLX - adult urban contemporary, they play Anita Baker way too many times and not enough Al Green
13. K101 - not sure what their identity is because they keep switching, but I think they now play 80's and 90's hits
14. KITS - Live 105 - a personal favorite since forever!
I remember reading an article in the Bay Guardian a few years back about how radio stations took hip hop to the suburbs. I guess it's true. After all the oldie but goodies stations, the most listened to music is hip/hop, although I think it's now considered just popular music.
Still, I will miss Z95.7 because they played all the sickie hits from the likes of people like Britney Spears and Backstreet Boys and Nsync. Where else are you going listen to Top 40 type music, which is so great for driving home from work.
I'm listening to KYLD now, which SFGate calls Urban Top 40. It's not too bad. They're playing a song by that rapper from St. Louis called Nelly and I actually like him and even bought his first CD. I guess I'll get used to losing that other top 40 station. Still, it's such a bummer. Just don't take away Live 105, which I've been listening to since I moved here. Where else am I going to hear power chords and angst filled music?
I check the radio station ratings on this website called rronline.com and here's the latest top 14 radio stations in the SF/Bay Area, which is the fourth largest market after NYC, LA and Chicago.
1. KGO - news talk radio - I listen to this station during the day - best talk show hosts, liberal view point.
2. KOIT - sappy pop songs, but good if you're in that kind of mood.
3. KCBS - news talk radio, has the most frequent traffic reports.
4. KSFO - news talk radio, conservative view point, home of Art Bell.
5. KYLD - wild 94.9, total hip hop 24/7 - gangsta rap bootie music, some alt rock thrown in
6. KDFC - classical music, okay I listen to this station alot when I write.
7. KMEL - hip hop 24/7 - more gangsta rap bootie music, their hip hop is a little edgier
8. KFRC - total oldies, but nothing past 1980, mostly 50's and 60 music
9. KSOL - hispanic - love the spanish versions of pop songs
10. KFOG - classic rock adult contemporary, makes me totally fall asleep when I listen to it, sad too because I used to listen to this radio station alot but they play way too many 70's and 80's rock anthems and they make me feel like an oldie, even the blues music they play isn't all that great - too much bayou and not enough chitown electric, and what the hell happened to the Grateful Dead Hour, the only great thing they've got is 10 at 10.
11. KKSF - total elevator music, although they call it smooth jazz, more like music as SOMA, only Delta and Epsilons types from Brave New world will listen to this station
12. KBLX - adult urban contemporary, they play Anita Baker way too many times and not enough Al Green
13. K101 - not sure what their identity is because they keep switching, but I think they now play 80's and 90's hits
14. KITS - Live 105 - a personal favorite since forever!
I remember reading an article in the Bay Guardian a few years back about how radio stations took hip hop to the suburbs. I guess it's true. After all the oldie but goodies stations, the most listened to music is hip/hop, although I think it's now considered just popular music.
Still, I will miss Z95.7 because they played all the sickie hits from the likes of people like Britney Spears and Backstreet Boys and Nsync. Where else are you going listen to Top 40 type music, which is so great for driving home from work.
I'm listening to KYLD now, which SFGate calls Urban Top 40. It's not too bad. They're playing a song by that rapper from St. Louis called Nelly and I actually like him and even bought his first CD. I guess I'll get used to losing that other top 40 station. Still, it's such a bummer. Just don't take away Live 105, which I've been listening to since I moved here. Where else am I going to hear power chords and angst filled music?
I saw Spider Man last night and totally loved it. The critics were right though, the special effects weren't that great. You could tell some of it was so computer generated and not really Tobey Maguire jumping from building to building. But the flying with the web sequences were great. Then there were those Matrix-esque moves which were great. Still, The Matrix had better special effects I think because of the interesting camera angles and the nature of computer generated Matrix world.
And it looks I'll get to enjoy Spider Man twice because I double booked myself for the movie. I forgot I promised my friend Kevin that we would go and when he called last night, I didn't have th heart to tell him I had already made plans to go and see Spider Man with my girlfriends in Redwood City on Friday. And now I'm too chicken to tell my girlfriends that I've already seen the movie because they were willing to wait till this Friday to see it with me. What to do.
Now that I've finished my screenplay and can get back to normal life, I think I'm going to overload myself on watching movies. If I want to be a movie screenwriter, I think I need to watch as many movies as I can stand. I want to see Dennis Quaid in The Rookie and there's a good double feature at the Balboa with Lantana and The Royal Tennebaums. But it's only Wednesday and the movie schedules change sometime on Thursday, so who knows what movies I'll be watching this weekend.
I also want to get back to other writing pieces. There's that novel that I start in November, that play I started in 1998, that short story I finished a month ago that needs to be edited and my two new stories about a shopping center carnival and my violin playing drug popping 19 year old boy who paints half his face white and half his face black and plays violin divinely in Washington Square Park.
And unlike wriitng screenplays at my pc at home, I can take my baby laptop and write my stories anywhere. This is definitely a good thing.
And it looks I'll get to enjoy Spider Man twice because I double booked myself for the movie. I forgot I promised my friend Kevin that we would go and when he called last night, I didn't have th heart to tell him I had already made plans to go and see Spider Man with my girlfriends in Redwood City on Friday. And now I'm too chicken to tell my girlfriends that I've already seen the movie because they were willing to wait till this Friday to see it with me. What to do.
Now that I've finished my screenplay and can get back to normal life, I think I'm going to overload myself on watching movies. If I want to be a movie screenwriter, I think I need to watch as many movies as I can stand. I want to see Dennis Quaid in The Rookie and there's a good double feature at the Balboa with Lantana and The Royal Tennebaums. But it's only Wednesday and the movie schedules change sometime on Thursday, so who knows what movies I'll be watching this weekend.
I also want to get back to other writing pieces. There's that novel that I start in November, that play I started in 1998, that short story I finished a month ago that needs to be edited and my two new stories about a shopping center carnival and my violin playing drug popping 19 year old boy who paints half his face white and half his face black and plays violin divinely in Washington Square Park.
And unlike wriitng screenplays at my pc at home, I can take my baby laptop and write my stories anywhere. This is definitely a good thing.
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