I may have good news on the job front, but I don't want to write about it and perhaps jinx it till it happens. In this shaky world of ours, I'm not going on anything till it happens in real time. Talk is cheap and action is the only thing that really counts.

Check this book out, The Game of Life and How to Play It by Florence Scovel Shin. I read this book whenever I'm looking for a new job, and it helps, it really really helps somehow.

I wonder if San Francisco Supervisor Matt Gonzalez's announcement that he won't run for reelection is just some ploy to get his supporters to beg him to stay in politics. Talk about a great way to get publicity.

Announce your leaving politics forever, have your supporters start a campaign to beg you not to leave, and then tell the media how everyone loves you and supports you too much for you to leave. Announce your triumphant return to San Francisco politics.

We shall see.

I was on the 41 Union bus that goes through the Marina tonight, on my way to a roastery to buy coffee. A chick gets on the bus with another girl carrying a Coach shopping bag.

The two women sit down and the chick takes a shoe box out of the bag, and starts to show her friend her new Coach brand flip flops, ie rubber slippers. They're called the Carin Sandal.

Okay, so I know it's like Coach and all, but $70 for rubber slippers with a 1 1/4 inch heel. Come on. How Marina girl can you get?

I spent most of the weekend in bed with allergies. I'm getting desperate, and if the allergies won't go away I'm going to try Claritin. Claritin can be bought over the counter now, and everyone I know says it's great.

I have a second midterm exam for my film history class on Thursday, so I did end up studying on both days. Still it's so not fun to cooped up at home afraid to go out, because being outside makes me sneeze and stuffs up my nose.

The hot weather here is such a drag for my allergies. But I'm not the only one. There are a ton of people at work complaining about their allergies as well.

I hate that I feel like such a loser at work. I think this feeling stems from the fact that I'm contracting, and not a permanent hire. I've got meetings scheduled through the week of April 5, and then if the job doesn't work out I'm gone the next week.

My bosses keep acting like I'll be there forever because I'm schedule to be on a project team that ends May 31. Then my big boss today told me I have to replicate this study that was done in the fall of last year. I can see that study taking at least three weeks to complete. Then there's training I'm supposed to have to use some software tool they bought for $200K. And then we had a meeting today about some work that's supposed to start in July.

I hate that everyone is treating me like I'm a full time employee, when I'm actually not. I was in a meeting on Wednesday when one of my bosses announced that some person on his floor quit after three days. He said it was a mutual decision.

I feel like quitting my every day, but I know I can't because I need income to live. I just feel so overwhelmed 90% of the time. My big boss is tossing my name around in meetings, and volunteering for me to do all these projects.

Remeber that analysis that I made a little mistake on yesterday? I received an email this afternoon saying that the VP I sent it it was forwarding my analysis to another VP for his input and review. And I'm like great ... more people to notice that the titles of the chart aren't quite right.

I found out this morning that another file I sent to the VP last night was missing some information that I thought the IT guy had sent. I should have checked it more thoroughly before I sent it off, but I thought the IT guy was going to just replicate what he had sent me before and that dataset was perfect.

I really need to double check my work and slow down. I feel such pressue to perform and perform well. And I don't perform well under pressure at all, as you've no doubt noticed.