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Tuesday, September 09, 2003

The back to back bombings in Israel are bumming me out. And people ask me why I'm not pro-palestinian. Like I'm supposed to support this kind of terrorist bombing, which for me would be like saying America deserved what happened on 9/11. No way! No effing way!

I mean, it's why I can't stand to go to peace rallies in San Francisco. All peace rallies in San Francisco eventually turn into a pro-palestinian, ant-semitic rant. Like the palestinians are not guilty of their horrid terrorists acts against the state of Israel. And as a friend told me the other day, part of the philosophy of the Infitida is to have as any "innocent"
teenagers get "killed" by Israeli's as possible so world opinion goes against Israel.

How bad karma is that. How so not "do unto other as they would have them do unto you". That's what karma says. Treat me a certain way, and I'll treat you the exact same way, only three times worse. Or as most futurists are saying, karma is speeding up now, so you get it back 10 ten times worst.

If being a strong supporter of the state of Israel, the only democracy in the middle east, the only friend of the US in the region, means I get labeled a right wing neo conservative Bush lover, then so be it. Better to be a Shrub loving neo con than an anti-semitic enthusiastic supporter of terrorist bombing.

And you know this is the same group who had the nerve to say the day after 9/11 happened, that those people who threw themselves off the World Trade Center buildings because they were freaked out, deserved to die that way.

Yeah, like some poor schlub who was working as a bus boy or girl at the restaurant at the top of World Trade Center, making minimum wage, deserved to die because of some islamic extremist.
Yay! The comments are back.

Monday, September 08, 2003

A friend just forwarded to me the Thomas Friedman column from 9/3/2003. In it he says the most talked about news story in the arab world was their version of American Idol called "Superstar"; 52 to 48 by Thomas Friedman of the NY Times.

I only got into American Idol this year, and the best part of the show other than Simon, was the beginning shows where they did the tryouts. It was the funniest thing to watch people get up and sing, who clearly can't sing.

I wonder if the Arab American Idol show had their version of Simon, and if they had people try out who can't sing.

My friend made a point of saying that the appeal of American Idol, which originally started in Britian, is that it's human.

I think the appreciation of music as expressed through the human voice is part of every culture. I think competition is also part of every culture. Put the two together, and you have a show that will appeal across cultural lines.

Saturday, September 06, 2003

How the heck did Israel get a 550 pound bomb? This is not good, not good at all; Abbas Resigns; Israel Bombs Gaza City.

This new move of theirs is like even pushing the limits of my support for them. How can you even think of dropping a 550 pound bomb in a city? What in heck was the state of Israel thinking?
It feels very weird to me right now, that I flew to LA this morning and now tonight I'm back home in San Francisco. I know I got on a plane and left the area, but it went by so fast that it doesn't even feel like I was away.

But then again, I used to fly to NYC for the weekend from San Francisco three or four times a year, leaving Friday night and coming back Sunday, so maybe I have to leave the state to feel like I'm really away.

I'm exhausted. The Los Angeles County Museum of Art was great! I definitely need to back and see their regular art exhibits. I was so burnt out from so much visual stimulation that after about four hours I couldn't take it anymore.

I looked at stuff, but didn't stop to study them, didn't marvel and at the end didn't really care. LACMA has some great exhibits too and it's huge. There were parts of the museum that I didn't even get to because I was so tired.

All in all a very worthwhile trip, except for their transit system although I learned alot from my mistakes. Their Metro, BART like system is great. Their bus system is confusing and worse than the NYC bus system. No wonder people don't take the bus in LA.

I definitely want to fly back down there perhaps in December, and see the rest of the museum that I missed. I was so tired I didn't even want to go into their museum store. Now that's tired.

Friday, September 05, 2003

I keep wondering if I should play Fantasy Football league every year. I've always wanted to do it, just to see how I would do.

At this one company I worked for, there was an in-house fantasy football league. My boss, the director of Planning and Analysis, said I could be part of his team, but it all seemed like a big deal. All the bigwigs (the CFO, COO, Pres, VPs and directors) in the company played, and you could only play by invitation only.

And I think if I had played, I would have been the only girl playing. Like either the guys played by themselves and if there were teams, there were all guys. I was only allowed to play because I worked in Finance, and since the league was started by the CFO, anyone in Finance could play.

I didn't play because I didn't know any of the players. These same people played in either the weekly football pool and/or the March Madness pool, which I always participated in.

I didn't play because all of the horror stories I heard about the draft. The big thing in this fantasy football league was the draft. You sit around the room with everyone and dicker over players. My boss kept telling me how nasty people got, especially about picking quarterbacks and running backs.

The whole thing sounded like one giant testosterone fueled nightmare, only now played by people I worked with, sent reports to, sat in meetings with, even reported to.

I mean, it was bad enough sometimes having to sit through meetings where I was the only woman in at the table. It was part of my job, and I put up with it and everything was very business like and very civil.

I couldn't imagine having to do the same thing, but now for fun with bigwigs in my company who took the fantasy football thing way too seriously. Just reading the memos that were sent via email just to put the draft meeting together were enough to scare me off.

The draft had serious rules, you couldn't be late for it, and there was a whole bunch of warnings about the kind of behaviour not tolerated. I was reading them thinking, guys it's only a game, it's not like you're even a real owner of a team.

I mentioned this to my boss and he gave me a stern look and told me "if you aren't serious about it, maybe you shouldn't play because these guys are really, really into it." And I was like, fine, whatever.

It's just a game right? How serious can you really take fantasy football?
Watched football last night, and wanted to the Jets to win but I guess not. I like Herman Edwards way more than I like Steve Spurrier, especially after the way the guy was so hyped coming from the college ranks.

Poor New York Jets. The Redskins picked up four of their free agents, their young star QB is hurt, and poor Vinnie Testaverde looked so old.

Heard on the radio that Jimmy Johnson is interviewing Bill Parcells on Sunday. That will be an interesting interview, seeing as how Jimmy Johnson used to also coach the Dallas Cowboys.

I like Jimmy Johnson. For an older dude guy with helmet hair and leathery skin, there's something about him that's strangely attractive, like I would definitely not kick the guy out of my bed. I'd have to think about whether to boot Antonio Banderas or Brad Pitt out of my bed, but not Jimmy Johnson.

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

So I've gotten myself hooked on a TV show, this time a Brit one called MI-5 in the states and Spooks in the UK.

I've watched bits of it here and there, but there was a marathon on Labor Day and I really got into it.

I'm in love with Tom, the main character. He's definitely a stud-muffie, femmie boy brit style. Oh those femme boys from the Brittish Isles ... what is it about them that are so attractive?

This one is on paper is not even that physically attractive with his pasty white face. But at least thank god, he's doesn't wax his chest hairs. The hairless chest look on a guy is just so icky!!!

They're femme, but they look like they could slit your throat open without a second thought. It's such an odd combination, but bizarrely attractive.

They have the femme boy eyes and mannerisms, the skinny but buff bods, and that sense that they're mean as heck underneath it all if crossed and or in the right mood, but also sweet too like puppy dogs. Like I said, they're attractive but you're never quite sure why.

Maybe I just love his character. He's so sharp, knows everything, and boy can he fire that gun and kill those terrorists.

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

The comments website is still down, which is a bummer.

It's been foggy in my neighbourhood all weekend, so I headed downtown just to see some sun.

I saw 28 Days Later, the movie by Danny Boyle of Trainspotting fame. I liked it, but it had nothing new to say in terms of survivalist type films. The Trigger Effect is the best survivalist movie in recent times, and that old Brit scifi series "Survivor" was good as well, showing all the different groups of people that will probably emerge if a disease wipes 99.9% of the planet out.

I loved the opening of how the disease gets spread though. It was an evocative political commentary.

On Saturday, I went to see an exhibit of "Italian Manuscript Painting of the Middle Ages and Renaissance." I love this stuff. I saw a ton of it England at the various museums I visited.

The colours are so vivid and I love all the little painting they artists put in letters and those amazing borders. If I had oodles and oodles of cash to burn, I would love to buy and have the stuff hanging in my house.

I have a friend who owns a couple of museum quality pieces of italian manuscript, and I am so totally jealous. To see them up close and unframed is just fantastic. The colours are so alive and beautiful.

On Sunday, I ran errands, worked out, even wrote for a bit, which was nice. I'm still recovering from my cold, and I've been feeling too tired in the evenings to write. My cold is over, but the cough is hanging for dear life.

If I don't leave the house and go somewhere and write, I don't write. It's just too tempting to watch TV, zone out, or putz around the place when I'm at home. I have to leave and go somewhere and make myself sit down and write.

I was invited to go see Shakespeare in the Park on Monday, but I just couldn't stomach sitting in the freezing fog and being sick for another week.

I went to see "Step into Liquid" the surf movie instead. What a great movie! If you love surfing, you have to see it. I'm definitely adding it to my surfing movie collection when it gets released on DVD. The surfing footage is just spectacular and beats anything on TV or that movie "Blue Crush".

I also finally watched the movie, "The Shipping News". Cate Blanchett was amazing, and overall the movie was good but not great. All the reviews say to read the book, so I might just end up doing that because I loved the story.

Saturday, August 30, 2003

Below are links to pictures from my cruise sailing down the California coast line to Catalina Island and then to Cabo San Lucas and back.

The Celebrity Cruise ship

Catalina

More Catalina

Another view of Catalina

Typical Catalina Car - they use golf carts to get around

Cabo San Lucas

A famous Cabo site

A Cabo beach

A little blurry but the famous Cabo San Lucas Arch
I don't why people are making such a big deal about Madonna kissing Britney Spears and Christina Aguillera.

The kisses were sorority girl type kisses, the kind of kiss you have with your girlfriends to have fun, experiment, to tease the guys at a party, or when you've had too much to drink and just want to kiss someone.

Like girls kissing girls was so normal, so standard in college, nobody thought twice, cared or thought the girls were lesbians.

As a society, it seems like our collective minds are in the gutter if people can't be a little too friendly with their own sex and not have people automatically assume they're having sex. What is up with that?
The Christian Science Monitor has a quiz to see if you're a NeoCon; Are you a neoconservative? Take this quiz to find out.

My results were: Based on your answers, you are most likely a neoconservative.

Neoconservatives…

Want the US to be the world's unchallenged superpower
Share unwavering support for Israel
Support American unilateral action
Support preemptive strikes to remove perceived threats to US security
Promote the development of an American empire
Equate American power with the potential for world peace
Seek to democratize the Arab world
Push regime change in states deemed threats to the US or its allies

Historical neoconservative: President Teddy Roosevelt
Modern neoconservative: President Ronald Reagan

Wow, surprising but the questions aren't easy ones and I gave very conservative answers. I thought for sure I'd fall more in the middle, but I guess not. And I so can't stand Ronald Reagan. Teddy Roosevelt I like, but not the actor president, no friggin' way!

I think I need to rethink my american foreign policy views if I end up on a silly newspaper quiz in the same group as Uncle Ronnie. SCARY!!!

Friday, August 29, 2003

So even though I've been warned not to do it, because there are so many predators on line, I signed up for a free trial at a christian singles dating website.

How many predators can there be on a christian singles dating website?

I've never had good luck with these things as far as permanent relationships, but I've gotten great dates out of them.

I didn't even obsess over the writing of my profile, and just zipped through it and posted it along with a some recent pics.

It was fun and it felt evil to do, because I was warned by all my friends to never do it, but what the heck, right?

What's the worse that can happen? I'll get a catholic or a bible banger. Maybe I should have said something about wanting to only date my own denomination, because I'm not switching churches for anyone, unless it's for another presbyterian church that I like and doesn't freak me out.

I watched a history of Martin Luther on TV, and the end, I was like "no wonder I'm not a catholic." I love Martin Luther! He was like so spiritual and so cool. I don't know how anyone can remain a catholic after having watched that show on TV about him.

I told my very catholic uncle in Hawaii about being presbyterian, and he laughed and said "Presbyterian is catholicism without the pope, rome and all the rules." My church has a communion service every other week, and for easter there was a class on confession and lots of people made a confession before Easter. Go figure!

Not even sure I'd switch churches anyway, because lots of people have two faith marriages. Just as long as the person doesn't hold that many opposite views to my own, because then we'd fight alot and that's not fun and not something I would ever put up with for very long.
If you haven't done it already, go to www.donotcall.gov, and register your phone numbers so the telemarketers can't call you.

You have until August 31, 2003 to do it. If you register after this date, the telemarketers won't update their lists for three months if they update them at all.
Here's a new novel idea that I was tossing around with my writing group. It would be way too much work and research for me to do, but it would be interesting to write.

From what I've been able to gather, a group of people got together and decided which books should go in the bible and become part of the official cannon. There were others gospels, but they got rejected. My church has copies of all of the rejected books of the bible.

I thought that writing a novel about being a rejectee of the biblical conference would be so cool. It would
totally fictional of course, but I could create a character who actually knew christ when alive, and wrote a story about it which has been handed down through the generations.

His descendant has a mission to get his ancestor's gospel into the bible, and he or she goes to the biblical conference where he or she finds politics, intrigues, backstabbing, etc. Sadly, this gospel is rejected at the
end, but it still survives in the family's possessions.

I was also thinking the story would be fun if you start it in present time, and then flip back and forth to the present.

Like having the main character, a man comes to mind, inherit the document, and then start investigating it. He's the last of his line, and he has problems with relationships, so the line may die with him if he doesn't have kids.

Many of Christ's follower were jews, so I'd like him to be descended from the same tribe of Jesus, which is the Benjamin tribe, and tie that into the whole abraham line - Abraham, Jacob, Joseph & Benjamin
from Rachel, King David from the Benjamin tribe as is Jesus. I like the symmetry of that.

He'd have to have a love interest, so I'd add some university nerd chick, cute of course but nerdy as alll hell, archeologist type that he contacts to investigate the document. They fall in love investigating the family document, which is wrapped in benjamin tribe cloth, echoing how moses was found wrapped in jewish cloth floating down the nile. Not sure if cloth would survive that long, so some kind of benjamin tribe ancient relic.

You could plot it two ways; 1) have the family document reveal something they left out in the bible, which you'd have to make up and it would have be something very controversial, or 2) since there was no printing in those days, documents had to be written down and copied, so maybe his ancestor wrote a place down wrong or got some kind of obvious detail wrong, which would be why the ancestor's document was rejected as an official bible book.

Make fate be a small and simple thing, which affects everthing. But the story ends happily with sad lonely descendant finding love with cute archeologist nerd and the family line being carried on along with the secret.

This novel would be hard to write though, because you'd first have to come up with a some kind of biblical gospel that would closely mirror one of the four gospels in the bible as the secret text. I don't think it would be that impossible, but it would definitely require much
thought.

Each gospel had a point of view, so you'd have to come up with a new point of view which would mean reading all the rejected ones and knowing the major ones well enough to fake a copy of one.

I love the idea of the novel though.

Thursday, August 28, 2003

I'm watching the Oakland Raiders and Dallas Cowboys preseason exhibition football game.

I totally forgot that Bill Parcells is now the head coach for the Cowboys. It will be interesting to see what he can do for the Cowboys. He brings such a different philosophy of playing than what the Cowboys have been used to.

Parcells is old style football; smash mouth with a good running game and long bombs. You won't see any of the vaunted west coast offense of a short passing game and racking up the yardage in the air.

It will be interesting to see if Parcells can turnaround the Dallas tean, and if owner Jerry Jones will play a big role on the team as he's done in the past.
So my evil secret favorite tv show is on tonight, Temptation Island 3. I think it's one of best shows that television has ever produced. I have so much fun watching it, and it is the best reality show out there.

My friends think I'm crazy for watching it, and that it's the sleaziest and crassest show on tv, but that's what so fun about it. It's pure schlock, it's tv trash in its purest and highest form, no dilution, no high brow BS to get in the way, no aren't we artsy fartsy cultural for watching this show.

No, you watch the show because it's so much fun to see people acting trashy, questioning themselves, screwing their lives up, it's like they're filming a train wreck in slow motion. How fun is that?

I love it how when girls get together they revert into slutty sorority girls, and start treating men like trash. I love how the men agonize and fight over the single women, and how whoreish the single girls get. The single guys don't get trashy, they get territorial like dogs over the women.

You know life is really like this sometimes, and it's just so great to see it confirmed on Temptation Island.
Trippy. There was a power blockout in London earlier today. Their power was only out for half an hour, but still.

Conspiracy theorists discuss!
I was talking to someone I've known for a couple of years, and all of sudden religion and God came up in our conversation. I don't usually bring the topic up unless it comes up in conversation, and then when it does I'm very careful about it.

Religion, faith and God have always been very personal issues for me, and unless I feel a certain comfort level with a person I don't talk about it. Religion, faith and God seem to such a hot-button issue, so controversial, in some circles so politically incorrect, that it's so worth the stress of getting into it unless it's brought up.

Some people are so entrenched in their beliefs on either side of the issue, that to me it's a waste of my energy and breath to talk about it. They're not open, they'll argue and freak out, why bother? Life is stressful enough, why add to everyone's already stressed out life.

Anyway, I think my friend fears religion, fears Jesus, and fears God, and her fears really shocked me. I've never feared religion, Jesus or God, ever in my life.

I mean, maybe that's my problem in life, that I don't fear far Jesus, God or religion, but I don't have memories of ever fearing these things. I don't even get how anyone can fear religion, Jesus or God, and I don't think I want to know.

It's sad to think that my woman friend has been treated so badly sometime in her life by people in the name of religion, Jesus and God, that age 60+ she still fears it.

What's weird is that as we were having the conversation, I could feel my reptilian brain activating because I could sense, no feel is a better word, feel her fear. I've never had that sensation before. She was afraid of me, because I told her I believed in God, JC and was a christian.

People fear Jesus. This is such a strange concept to me.

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

Everyone I know has read Dan Brown's "The Da Vinci Code" and are raving about it, so now I have to read it to see what the fuss is all about.

It's chock full of conspiracy theories, so I'm sure I'll just love it since I just love the conspiracy theories.