I didn’t know that you never really loved me until another someone came along who loved me more than you ever did. You were the one who I thought was my longed for twin, the other half of me that I didn’t know I had until you came along.
We were so alike and yet we were not. Memories of all our happy past lives kept coming into my head. I came to this planet only because of you because you promised we would never be apart. We should have known better than to make promises to each other that we knew might be impossible to keep. But we did and then we came to this planet so very long ago, and then we parted in the worst way, the betrayal of all betrayals.
But because we really were true twin from Sirius, we managed to come together in subsequent lives and lived somewhat happy lives but lives that would forever be tainted by that first betrayal which we still have not healed from in all of these centuries on this planet.
A psychic healer once told me never to enter into a relationship with someone I had a lot of karma with because those relationships tend to not work out; there is too much karma to be dealt with in this short life. I didn’t know what she meant until I met you.
And what a wonderful feeling it was to meet you knowing our past lives had been so wrapped up together through many galaxies, so many dimensions, and so much time. But then the fear came back. I felt it from you in Scottsdale. I knew you wondered if you would betray me again as you had during our first incarnation on this planet, and I knew you didn’t know if you would, so you took the easy way out and you left me. And although it hurt like hell at the time. I understood because I didn’t know if I had forgiven you for that first betrayals of betrayals.
So we went our separate ways and at some point I felt we were in different worlds, different timelines, where I was no longer even the person you met that first time. The gulf between us had again widened and swallowed us whole.
And now I am feeling love from someone else, and that love is healing my heart and it made me realize that your love for me never once healed me. Your love never broke down one negative belief I head about love, about you, about our past life history, about anything. But I didn’t know that at the time, and it took this other purer love to show me what you never gave me.
And yes it hurts, but it doesn’t hurt because I miss you or I have regrets or because I want you back. No, it hurts because you fooled me again like you did in that first incarnation. It hurts because I believed you, I believed you had changed, and you didn’t change. And now I finally understand why we were neve meant to be together in this life, that it was a godsend we parted in Scottsdale, that somehow the universe was looking out for me and taking you away from me for my own good.
And now I can finally close the chapter on our relationship and move on with my life for good and not look back and move forward. I was doing that anyway, but this new love has cut the last ties between us.
And so I wish nothing but love. Our twin-ness means we will probably meet again in another life. That seems to be our MO. But never again in this life. We truly are in different worlds, like trains on different tracks going in different directions. And I know that as our tracks get further and further apart, I will most likely never see you again, and I am okay with that.
Sunday, March 04, 2018
Sunday, February 25, 2018
The story continues
So the story that came to me on February 21 keeps evolving in my head. I am going to use the blog to write what is coming to me regarding this story.
I follow the channeler Bashar, and he says "you can't imagine non-existence". So in some dimension, some world, this story is actually happening and I am just recording what is being projected in my head.
These story parts came on February 23.
Memo from the Controller Group to all earth nations:
The attack on a member of a the Controller Group family last week did not go unnoticed, and is a considered a violation of the treaty you signed.
The attack came from a direct energy beam weapon, and although no harm came to the Controller Group family member, all direct energy beam weapons in all nations have been disabled but as you may have noticed not destroyed.
The Controller Group does not directly interfere in the evolution of the planet, but the attack warranted a response since it was in direct violation of the planetary treaty we have with you.
Any further attack on any member of any Controller Group family will be dealt with and if necessary with deadly force. This warning will not be repeated.
Memo from the People's Republic of China to Military Intelligence / NSA:
This communication is a request for an emergency meeting to to discuss the attack on our direct energy weapons research facility, and subsequent memo from the Controller Group.
Our intelligence tells us that the attack on the Contoller Group family came from a rogue CIA faction within your government. This "cultural revolution" going on in your country has jeopardized the security of our planet, and must be dealt with swiftly. The planet is currently defenseless against an attack from interplanetary forces, and go-forward strategy needs to be implemented.
While we do not want to interfere in your "cultural revolution", the CIA rogue faction is out of your control and we are therefore proposing to help with this problem.
Memo from Mossad to Military Intelligence / NSA:
The faction war going in your government has put the planet at risk. The rogue CIA faction that attacked the Controller Group family member must be dealt with ASAP.
We request a meeting to discuss logistics of the attack, and if there were other contingencies unaccounted for in the intrusion. The attack was direct and our intelligence tells us that the Controller Group must have had access to our building plans. Need dictates that we offer you help in taking out the CIA rogue faction before they further harm the planet.
Memo from Russia to Military Intelligence / NSA:
This "cousins war" going on in your country has now put planetary defenses at risk. Requesting a meeting to discuss a joint task force to take the "deep state" out, before they attempt another attack on another Controller Group family member, who is on the wrong side of this "cousins war".
Memo from the NSA to Military Intelligence:
Reports have been received that the direct energy beam weapons in Iran and North Korea have been disabled, and as well as the ones in the bases. We have reason to believe that the attack not only disabled the weapons, but corrupted all redundancy and vault files. Research and progress for these weapons have now been setback two years, although further is still ongoing.
We have received communications from countries with similar weapons requesting meetings to deal with the attacks. Concern is grave that the planet has now been left defenseless by the CIA rogue attack on the Controller Group family member, and attacked countries are now offering help with the "deep state".
Situation has given us much leverage which must be used to our advantage. Requesting additional resources to formulate a comprehensive worldwide strategy in response to the Controller Group message.
I follow the channeler Bashar, and he says "you can't imagine non-existence". So in some dimension, some world, this story is actually happening and I am just recording what is being projected in my head.
These story parts came on February 23.
Memo from the Controller Group to all earth nations:
The attack on a member of a the Controller Group family last week did not go unnoticed, and is a considered a violation of the treaty you signed.
The attack came from a direct energy beam weapon, and although no harm came to the Controller Group family member, all direct energy beam weapons in all nations have been disabled but as you may have noticed not destroyed.
The Controller Group does not directly interfere in the evolution of the planet, but the attack warranted a response since it was in direct violation of the planetary treaty we have with you.
Any further attack on any member of any Controller Group family will be dealt with and if necessary with deadly force. This warning will not be repeated.
Memo from the People's Republic of China to Military Intelligence / NSA:
This communication is a request for an emergency meeting to to discuss the attack on our direct energy weapons research facility, and subsequent memo from the Controller Group.
Our intelligence tells us that the attack on the Contoller Group family came from a rogue CIA faction within your government. This "cultural revolution" going on in your country has jeopardized the security of our planet, and must be dealt with swiftly. The planet is currently defenseless against an attack from interplanetary forces, and go-forward strategy needs to be implemented.
While we do not want to interfere in your "cultural revolution", the CIA rogue faction is out of your control and we are therefore proposing to help with this problem.
Memo from Mossad to Military Intelligence / NSA:
The faction war going in your government has put the planet at risk. The rogue CIA faction that attacked the Controller Group family member must be dealt with ASAP.
We request a meeting to discuss logistics of the attack, and if there were other contingencies unaccounted for in the intrusion. The attack was direct and our intelligence tells us that the Controller Group must have had access to our building plans. Need dictates that we offer you help in taking out the CIA rogue faction before they further harm the planet.
Memo from Russia to Military Intelligence / NSA:
This "cousins war" going on in your country has now put planetary defenses at risk. Requesting a meeting to discuss a joint task force to take the "deep state" out, before they attempt another attack on another Controller Group family member, who is on the wrong side of this "cousins war".
Memo from the NSA to Military Intelligence:
Reports have been received that the direct energy beam weapons in Iran and North Korea have been disabled, and as well as the ones in the bases. We have reason to believe that the attack not only disabled the weapons, but corrupted all redundancy and vault files. Research and progress for these weapons have now been setback two years, although further is still ongoing.
We have received communications from countries with similar weapons requesting meetings to deal with the attacks. Concern is grave that the planet has now been left defenseless by the CIA rogue attack on the Controller Group family member, and attacked countries are now offering help with the "deep state".
Situation has given us much leverage which must be used to our advantage. Requesting additional resources to formulate a comprehensive worldwide strategy in response to the Controller Group message.
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
New idea for a story - Containment of Non-Human Female Subject by CIA/NSA Joint Task Force
Communication to CIA / NSA Joint Task Force Regarding Non-human Female Subject:
After the Burbank Airport incident in 2009 when a team of remote viewers were killed during a routine surveillance operation, containment of Female Subject was achieved and the situation was in control.
A joint operation in 2017 with Mossad to place a operative / handler in Female Subject’s life to enhance containment failed. Mossad operative was not able to complete the operation due to family situation. Intel showed that Mossad operative was too emotionally involved with the female subject, and was not able to commit to a plan of removal if required.
During the last four (4) weeks, the situation became volatile when Female Subject displayed hitherto unknown abilities. Female subject unleashed a spectral pack of dogs and jackals to surround and protect POTUS and various members of POTUS counter coup team.
Spectral dogs and jackals are able to sense danger, and warns “feelers” surrounding POTUS. Jackals have demonstrated abilities to communicate with electronic and computer equipment to compromise and/or disable if needed for protection. Spectral dogs and jackals cannot be controlled, and while useful in protection of POTUS their inability to be controlled poses multiple threats.
The only conclusion that can be reached at this time is that the female subject subject is no longer contained and under control. Emergency steps have been taken to place a second handler in Female Subject’s life. After a week in operation, Female Subject has displayed abilities not previously accounted for during the lifelong surveillance.
Operation Second Handler will continue, but we are recommending the need for a more comprehensive plan of containment. In order to move forward, we need to ensure that there are no roadblocks and that Operation Second Handler has been cleared through all levels so there is no interference from Female Subject’s family.
When clearance has been authorized, we will convene a strategy containment meeting.
After the Burbank Airport incident in 2009 when a team of remote viewers were killed during a routine surveillance operation, containment of Female Subject was achieved and the situation was in control.
A joint operation in 2017 with Mossad to place a operative / handler in Female Subject’s life to enhance containment failed. Mossad operative was not able to complete the operation due to family situation. Intel showed that Mossad operative was too emotionally involved with the female subject, and was not able to commit to a plan of removal if required.
During the last four (4) weeks, the situation became volatile when Female Subject displayed hitherto unknown abilities. Female subject unleashed a spectral pack of dogs and jackals to surround and protect POTUS and various members of POTUS counter coup team.
Spectral dogs and jackals are able to sense danger, and warns “feelers” surrounding POTUS. Jackals have demonstrated abilities to communicate with electronic and computer equipment to compromise and/or disable if needed for protection. Spectral dogs and jackals cannot be controlled, and while useful in protection of POTUS their inability to be controlled poses multiple threats.
The only conclusion that can be reached at this time is that the female subject subject is no longer contained and under control. Emergency steps have been taken to place a second handler in Female Subject’s life. After a week in operation, Female Subject has displayed abilities not previously accounted for during the lifelong surveillance.
Operation Second Handler will continue, but we are recommending the need for a more comprehensive plan of containment. In order to move forward, we need to ensure that there are no roadblocks and that Operation Second Handler has been cleared through all levels so there is no interference from Female Subject’s family.
When clearance has been authorized, we will convene a strategy containment meeting.
Saturday, January 20, 2018
Normie in shock at Ed Dames Conference
When I was at Major Ed Dames’ remote viewing workshop last September and we were sitting in a group talking after the event, there was a normie woman there asking really basic questions. Poor Ed Dames had to constantly stop and explain something to her that everyone in the group already knew. It was very annoying and made me think we were all back in school and there a “special” kid in our class.
I wanted to have compassion for the poor normie lady because what was all common knowledge to the group was so new to her. And I can see if people aren’t able to get up to speed quickly, they are going to get left behind. The cognitive dissonance will be too much and too painful, and things will be moving too quickly to slow down to explain things to the normies.
And it’s not that I don’t think that people can’t get caught up, but it is the cognitive dissonance, having to give up beliefs, and having to admit to yourself that you are wrong. And If you haven’t ever had the experience of giving up your beliefs and admitting you may be wrong about how you think the world works, then I don’t know how the normies are going to get through the next 15-20 years.
The normies are going to have to split off into another world, like how people split their personalities to deal with horrible trauma in order to survive. It’s probably better this way for them to survive since a mind can only take so much trauma before it will choose death.
I wanted to have compassion for the poor normie lady because what was all common knowledge to the group was so new to her. And I can see if people aren’t able to get up to speed quickly, they are going to get left behind. The cognitive dissonance will be too much and too painful, and things will be moving too quickly to slow down to explain things to the normies.
And it’s not that I don’t think that people can’t get caught up, but it is the cognitive dissonance, having to give up beliefs, and having to admit to yourself that you are wrong. And If you haven’t ever had the experience of giving up your beliefs and admitting you may be wrong about how you think the world works, then I don’t know how the normies are going to get through the next 15-20 years.
The normies are going to have to split off into another world, like how people split their personalities to deal with horrible trauma in order to survive. It’s probably better this way for them to survive since a mind can only take so much trauma before it will choose death.
Tuesday, January 09, 2018
Q-anon on YouTube
Having fun listening to all the YouTube discussions about Q-Anon. Just search for @Qanon on Twitter and read the tweets.
Thursday, January 04, 2018
Wow, no posts in 2017 but I was writing. I finished the screenplay I started in 2002 finally, and submitted it to Inktip.
And an odd thing happened. People were reading it and I could feel them reading my screenplay which totally freaked me out. When I feel someone reading my screenplay I pick up their vibration, but not in a detailed way. It is more like a general overview of who they are, like a giant broad brushstroke. And not sure why I am surprised, but I am, but the people reading my screenplay were business types. Hollywood is a business after all, and sometimes not a nice business.
And now I am drafting a second screenplay based on an unpublished novel I wrote a few years ago. And still working on my Elf Chronicles novel, of course. Which I am now seriously thinking of self publishing. Three acquaintances of mine self published their novels and you can find them on Amazon.
So more writing for me in 2018. And hopefully more posting.
And an odd thing happened. People were reading it and I could feel them reading my screenplay which totally freaked me out. When I feel someone reading my screenplay I pick up their vibration, but not in a detailed way. It is more like a general overview of who they are, like a giant broad brushstroke. And not sure why I am surprised, but I am, but the people reading my screenplay were business types. Hollywood is a business after all, and sometimes not a nice business.
And now I am drafting a second screenplay based on an unpublished novel I wrote a few years ago. And still working on my Elf Chronicles novel, of course. Which I am now seriously thinking of self publishing. Three acquaintances of mine self published their novels and you can find them on Amazon.
So more writing for me in 2018. And hopefully more posting.
Working on my Elf Chronicles novel again.
How do you engineer the destruction of a nation, a realm?
1. Destroy the nation’s unity and divide the people
2. Destroy their history
3. Destroy communications
4. Destroy important and historical symbols of the nation
5. Disrupt the infrastructure
6. Destroy the family structure and separate the parents from the children
7. Create fear.
How do you fight against your aggressors, your invaders?
1. Guerrilla warfare; worked in the south to drive those northern carpetbaggers out, worked in Vietnam, countless other examples, works every time. No civilized country trains their soldiers to fight a guerrilla war, which is unfortunate. And no, the Surge does not work. I read that very long document and it would take unlimited resources. And the Surge is basically a civilized version of guerrilla warfare anyway.
2. Unify the remaining survivors
3. Form alliances with unlikely partners.
How do you keep your soul intact when you need to do everything you’ve been taught not to do to get your nation back from the invaders?
Answer unknown....
How do you engineer the destruction of a nation, a realm?
1. Destroy the nation’s unity and divide the people
2. Destroy their history
3. Destroy communications
4. Destroy important and historical symbols of the nation
5. Disrupt the infrastructure
6. Destroy the family structure and separate the parents from the children
7. Create fear.
How do you fight against your aggressors, your invaders?
1. Guerrilla warfare; worked in the south to drive those northern carpetbaggers out, worked in Vietnam, countless other examples, works every time. No civilized country trains their soldiers to fight a guerrilla war, which is unfortunate. And no, the Surge does not work. I read that very long document and it would take unlimited resources. And the Surge is basically a civilized version of guerrilla warfare anyway.
2. Unify the remaining survivors
3. Form alliances with unlikely partners.
How do you keep your soul intact when you need to do everything you’ve been taught not to do to get your nation back from the invaders?
Answer unknown....
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