2 Chronicles 16-17, 2 Chronicles 18: 1-27, 1 Corinthians 15;
1-34, Psalm 119: 121-128
2 Chronicles 16: 8-9 (ESV)
“Were not the Ethiopians and the Libyans a huge army with
very many chariots and horsemen? Yet because you relied on the Lord, he gave
them into your hand. For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the
whole earth, to give strong support to those whose heart is blameless toward
him. You have done foolishly in this, for from now on you will have wars.”
Verses 8 and 9 from 2 Chronicles were talked about in my
pastor’s recent sermon. King Asa had always relied on God until the 36th
year of his reign, when Baasha king of Israel built Ramah fortress to prevent people
going into and coming out of Juday Instead of consulting God as he did previously
when he faced the Ethiopians and Libyans, King Asa decided to make a treaty
with the King of Syria. Because Asa did not
solely rely on God, Hanani the seer told him he would now have wars instead of
peace. King Asa had peace for over 30 years, and now he would be facing war
without help from God. My pastor said God is always looking throughout the
earth to find those people of faith who are faithful, so he can fully support them.
My pastor asked us if we always fully rely on God.
I’ve been contemplating this question since his sermon and I
realized that even though I think I am fully reliant on God, I question God’s
wisdom every day. I know what God wants me do but when I wake up in the morning,
I have so much doubt if God made the right decision on his plan for me. I ask
God daily if he made the right decision / plan for my life. I never seem to be
satisfied knowing that God’s answer is always “yes” to my question. By asking this
question, I show my doubt that God knows what he’s doing in my life even though
I have years of proof that God’s plans for my life have always worked out for
the best. It’s been hard to stop from questioning / doubting God, but I am
getting better at it. Today was the first day I stopped myself from questioning
God. It was a big deal for me. I don’t think this will last battle I have with
my doubt, but I know that I had a victory this morning. And I know I couldn’t have
done it without God’s help. Even in my doubt, God helps me to overcome it
because he Is a good God.