Isaiah 20-23, 2 Corinthians 11: 1-15, Psalm 131
Psalm 131: 1-2 (ESV)
“O Lord, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised
too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for
me. But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.”
Verses 1 and 2 from Psalm 131 spoke to me today. In this
psalm David renounces not only his pride and arrogance, but his ambition. David
also says he has calmed his soul and is content with God and his plan and feels
like a child who had been weaned from its mother. I feel that Holy Spirit has
been convicting me this past week of wanting to be recognized and praised, instead
of having a humble attitude of being called to serve God. God has given me
gifts, and there is a part of me that constantly wants to be recognized and praised
for those gifts. I found myself fantasizing this week of being recognized for
my gifts and having Holy Spirit at the same time, telling me that I was indulging
in the sin of pride. God is the source of all gifts, and he gives them to us to
fulfill his plans on earth. I struggled all week with my ego fighting the wisdom
of the Holy Spirit, and it made for a very stressful week. My pride also made
me realize I was trying to be somebody who I am not, which is a boastful and ambitious
person.
When I read psalm 131, it gave me great comfort to know that
David had the same struggles and I need to adopt how he calmed and quieted his
soul. God is the source of everything in our lives, and if we remember that and
not get caught up in pride or ambition, we will have a greater sense of peace within
ourselves.
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